I’ve always been big into countdowns. When I was younger, I used to decorate my planner with countdowns for everything—prom, midterms, holidays, vacations. If there was an exciting event in the not-so-distant future, I could tell you how many months, weeks and days were left until the big day.
I still find myself counting down these days. We took a big vacation this summer—let’s call it a baby moon plus one—and every morning when my daughter woke up, I’d say, “[Insert number] days left until we’re going to fly on an airplane!” But while that countdown was fueled by lots of excitement, there’s another big, life-changing countdown happening right now, and the anticipation is being overshadowed by a whole lot of anxiety. Six weeks left until baby #2.
Don’t get me wrong—it’s not that I’m not excited to meet this little guy who’s been practicing his dance moves in my belly nonstop for the past month. It’s just that it feels like the stakes are so much higher this time around. There are more things to accomplish and less time to finish them. There are major changes happening in our house, and they’re a little bit panic-inducing for someone who doesn’t always like change. Above all, there’s an awfully sweet two-year-old girl along for the ride who demands—and deserves—all the hugs and kisses and love I have to give. And I fully intend to soak up these precious moments with my girl while we’re still just that—me and my girl.
I tend to be overly dramatic when I’m feeling overwhelmed, and when I gave the Project Nursery team a bump update, I think my exact words were, “I’m totally freaking out!” It’s a good thing that my audience for that Oscar-worthy performance was full of inspiring mamas who have all been in my eight-months-pregnant shoes because I got some pretty amazing words of comfort and wisdom. “I can tell you that it will all be great. Your heart stretches, and you won’t be able to believe that baby #2 wasn’t always part of your family.” Sometimes we’re lucky enough to hear exactly the right words at exactly the right time.
Any other soon-to-be mamas-of-two out there? How are you handling the countdown to baby #2?